No place like...........

When I was dating my hubby we lived over 9 hours away from each other & we saw each other maybe once every couple of months. This was hard!  Even with our consistent nightly phone calls it wasn't the same as being face to face. Every time a face to face visit would end I'd have these strong homesick feelings in the pit of my stomach till we were together again in each other's physical presence. 

This past May my hubby and I celebrated 5 years of marriage and for these entire 5 years of marriage we have lived over 9 hours away from my family up North.   At first I'll admit it was easy to leave Canada after a few day visit.  I'd shed a few tears on the way home....have one or two small conversations with the hubby about maybe one day moving up north.....but I always seemed to recover quickly and got right back in to the swing of things here at home.  


Well I'm not sure what changed....but I feel those days of quick recovery from homesickness for my Canadian family are gone.  Even as I write this.... {twenty four hours after saying goodbye to my bro and parents}... I am fighting back an ocean of tears and that familiar homesick feeling that has been none existent for years is now back sitting in my stomach.  I wish I had a better understanding as to why this time was so much harder to leave or why it is effecting my emotions so more then ever before.....but I don't.  All I know is I want to go back.  I just want to go back to Canada.

Hey maybe if I click my heals three times saying there's no place like home, there's no place like home....

P.S Please do not mis understand me and think that I don't feel at home with my hubby and daughter.  They are my family, my loves and I wouldn't leave them to go back to Canada for anything.  I just wish the three of us as a whole could be closer to my extended family up north, does that make sense?